Sometimes I wonder how I’ve made it this far in life, school and my relationships.
Maybe I’m not that bad of a person right? Maybe I’m more of a Beyonce than I think I am. I mean I do have as many hours in a day as her, so it only makes sense right?
Well at least for now, that’s my motivation to make it through midterms, all these 7 page papers, filing my financial aid, signing up for health insurance, paying my bills, paying for my car and still managing to remember to eat, shower and sleep.
Nobody said adulthood would be this hard but it’s worth a fight right?
(Get Out The Box)
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The semester is only a few days short of being over and I don’t know if I should be slowing down, moving faster or worrying more or worrying less. Who ever might read this and might be going through a similar situation with finals coming up, just look at it this way; you’re closer to being done than before.
While yes I know that is very simple logic because well duh… just do me a favor a breath and relax and thank the universe you’re one step closer.
The end of this semester is nearly here and I don’t know if I should be more worried than I am right now.
Am I forgetting something to do? Should I be more stressed? Should I be more aware that I am closer to obtaining my bachelors than I realize? That it’s merely 3 semesters away and that by the end of next semester, I’ll be applying for graduation.
But it feels like just yesterday I was getting ready to leave for college and live in LA and now I’m back, yet never home.
I’m almost 21 and I still feel like I’m 17. But when it comes to exhaustion, I feel like I’m 75. I work too much.
It’s the holidays and we’re spending one at his house and one at mine. Our presents to family members are now ‘Sincerely Michael and Belen’.
And now it’s not just Tio Michael with his family, it’s Tia Belen and My "Sister-in-law Belen", My "Daughter-in-law Belen"
When did we even reach that relationship milestone?
My future is approaching and as much as I look forward to it, time needs to slow the heck down.
I just need a minute to catch my breath.
I was tired of holding it in, and I needed to let it all out. I am blessed that at the sight of my eyes watering, I have someone who immediately holds me close and tells me it’ll be okay.
I wish I could have one of those hugs every night, every day and at the sight of any weary look on my face.
Thank you for holding me together when everything else feels like it’s falling apart.
Catching up on homework.
Taking care of my sick boyfriend and keeping him company.
Napping all day.
It sure is nice having a day off.
I’ve followed in the steps on my lovely friend Tay and made a separate blog, simply to write and debrief over my days. Days as working as a barista, dealing with shitty costumers, lousy tips, being a college student and trying to make it out alive.
Check it out?
Bare with me, it’s been a while since I last posted but a lot has happened since then…
And what might that be?
For any follower who may stumble upon this post and for a split moment remember who I am, what I’ve written and what I’ve hoped for-this one’s for you.
I came to the realization that I’ve found my soulmate, yes you read right. I found my soulmate, and I couldn’t have a more loving, supportive and caring boyfriend in the world.